21DEC2020

There is no such thing as really religious, it is called crazy. There's religious and then there is madness

03SEP2020

 Happiness and success is all individualized. Do not compare yourself to others because that will only be your downfall. The American dream is seen to many as linear. Finish high school, go to college, and get a good job. Not every one gets to live this make-shift "American Dream". There will always be other ways to achieve your dreams and that dream may change from time to time. Living a life full of happiness is what people should achieve, not to attempt to achieve the "American Dream" and live a terrible feeling life. Do not live the dream if it only makes you feel terrible. Most find the dream as what most others seek. However the real dream is what you truly seek outside of others views. In this modern American society, it's hard to see outside the "American Dream", because that is how most are raised realizing without a exit strategy or a alternative strategy. Don't follow it if your life is not set in one direction. If one thing doesn't work out, change directions. Don't see one road, visualize and branch out. Success to one should not be seen as success to another. Success is what you make out of it. As one of my favorite artist, Bon Jovi sang; "It's my life, it's now or never. I ain't gonna live forever."

26AUG2020

Black Lives Matter is too large and at the same time, too underfunded. It also happened and formed too fast to have a structural hierarchy; thus it cannot yet be controlled. There are peaceful people who claim to be part of BLM, protesting. There are also dangerous people who also claim to be BLM, rioting. It is civil rights movement of today. This is what happens during these type of movements.

26AUG2020

Some say to stay with positive people and avoid the negative people in your life. What if you are the negative person trying to stay with positive but the positive don't want to stay with you? To all my positive family and friends, stay with me and one day I will bring positivity in your life.

19AUG2020

 God gave each of us a heart, the main thing that keeps us physically alive. Yet it is also the heart that is the symbol of love, also the main thing that keeps us mentally alive. 

God would not have given each of us a heart if he didn't know that we can love each other regardless. Regardless of how wealthy or impoverished you are, what racial background you belong to and what problems you resolve or cause. 

God knew we can live with each other, unconditionally and with love. Our heart and the symbol it represents, it the greatest thing that he could ever give.

11AUG2020

Next on my list is a Martin DC-13E. I'll probably get it in 2 years down the road. It's unfathomable level of luxurious pricing and my ability to play guitar is not worthy to reckon this premium companion yet. This is my dream guitar and it packs a powerful force of almighty Martin that's too strong for me at this moment. I succumb to wield a wooden piece built so gracious in tonality. Fate and faith, hand in hand is not going to get me there yet. May probability be in my favor when it comes to lottery if I buy a ticket one day. Though a better piece can be sought with such wealth, the Martin DC-13E whispers to my ears each night with irresistible passion, "Come to me, consume me and embrace me." This will be my next, my only and my last guitar. 

29JUL2020

Often do I isolate myself from large crowds for no reason; Even if they are a friends or family gathering. Sometimes I would sit down on a chair after a happy day and I suddenly think, " Wow, why do life suck this much." Time to time, I would lay on bed at night and think about ending my life.

Very minimal amount of those will know how I feel. You know who you are. This feeling I can say is impossibly difficult to understand unless that person has gone through the same process as I have in life. Wether it be a chemical imbalance of the brain, trauma through life experiences, or all things possible.

I am diagnosed with major depression, reoccurring with psychotic symptoms and multiple suicide attempts. I'm sorry if I keep away from you. I'm sorry if I shut down in front of you. Those are a few reasons I don't intend but do.

Don't think this is a goodbye message. I just had to let you know that I still care about my friends and family very much and why I am socially awkward and how socially incapable I am. I'm trying, I just don't know how to despite all the support and knowledge I have going for me. I may soon or may not ever figure it out. 

I may not have the life I've wanted. I may not be who you want me to be. Please don't give up on me because I would not for you.

Dave Le

18JUN2020

I'm not smart and I'm not hard working. I only find a select few things I truly enjoy. I pour all my intellectual capability and push my mortal limit as much as I can into them. If there's something I do that I don't have the desire for, my whole mental and physical capacity shuts down and drains in reverse. I cannot control or force myself to do things I have no interest in. People wonder why I don't go to school or work. I'm not lazy, I just can't function like others. My form won't allow it.

23APR2020

Sometimes the hard way is the easy way.