29JUL2020

Often do I isolate myself from large crowds for no reason; Even if they are a friends or family gathering. Sometimes I would sit down on a chair after a happy day and I suddenly think, " Wow, why do life suck this much." Time to time, I would lay on bed at night and think about ending my life.

Very minimal amount of those will know how I feel. You know who you are. This feeling I can say is impossibly difficult to understand unless that person has gone through the same process as I have in life. Wether it be a chemical imbalance of the brain, trauma through life experiences, or all things possible.

I am diagnosed with major depression, reoccurring with psychotic symptoms and multiple suicide attempts. I'm sorry if I keep away from you. I'm sorry if I shut down in front of you. Those are a few reasons I don't intend but do.

Don't think this is a goodbye message. I just had to let you know that I still care about my friends and family very much and why I am socially awkward and how socially incapable I am. I'm trying, I just don't know how to despite all the support and knowledge I have going for me. I may soon or may not ever figure it out. 

I may not have the life I've wanted. I may not be who you want me to be. Please don't give up on me because I would not for you.

Dave Le

18JUN2020

I'm not smart and I'm not hard working. I only find a select few things I truly enjoy. I pour all my intellectual capability and push my mortal limit as much as I can into them. If there's something I do that I don't have the desire for, my whole mental and physical capacity shuts down and drains in reverse. I cannot control or force myself to do things I have no interest in. People wonder why I don't go to school or work. I'm not lazy, I just can't function like others. My form won't allow it.

23APR2020

Sometimes the hard way is the easy way.

23AUG2019

She's the definition of perfect in all human possiblities. She's impossibly gorgeous in blown out proportions. Her physical form and mental capacity is infinite in mathematical scale. She's the one and only, the most beautiful one.

23JUN2019

To love God is to love every one else and myself. God created everyone equal and because we are his image. Hating another is to hate God because that other is his image. Hating yourself is to hate God because you are his image.

17JUL2018

Every life decision is a compromise. You negate every other possible outcome with every decision. You may not know it but you trade in at the same time you trade out with every choice. That's just life.

05FEB2018

I'm not the selfish one, those who think so are the ones who are. How can others expect me to live for them if I can't even live for myself.

26NOV2016

I am thankful for everyone good and bad for shaping the way I am today.

31JAN2016

If you want it bad enough, it becomes a need.

17DEC2015

You're beautifully poetic because you're so easy to stare at.

22OCT2015

I can't thrive in the present when I fear for the future. 

29AUG2014

Nothing lasts forever, things will change through time. Just let fate carry you forward when you are lost, and eventually you'll find your place in time.

21JAN2014

I'm happy of where I am today. Although I'm not that happy at all, but it is as happy as I can get. If I were to change a thing of regret, I wouldn't be where I am today, I wouldn't be myself. 

23AUG2013

Life is too short to not want to believe in everything that you've always wanted to believe in. Even if it's something not many people have hopes for, even if it's something that seems impossible to obtain. A little bit of faith, a little bit of hope, and that puts you on the list to possibly one day achieve it. Better to die knowing you believed in something than to die knowing you did not.

12AUG2013

If it was a secret you kept, then it was never a secret. The secret behind a secret is that it is not if it is kept, rather it is just another figment of your imagination. Secrets are meant to be broken and known and that's the beauty of making it a secret.

24MAY2013

If God put you in a world where everything happens for a reason. Then hell wouldn't have existed. If everything happens for a reason then there wouldn't be turmoil on Earth. Thus hell exists. 

21MAY2013

The Lord created us individually to create our own paths rather than to create us through steps in time. He has done so because he knew he wouldn't have created you the way he did if you were created not strong enough to live the way he had imagined, through his own image.

08MAY2013

Positivity is a fad existing to humanity only to mask negativity which is inevitable in standard society.

30APR2013

What's the point of life when success is all so uncertain. Life is uncertain of happiness but so certain of sadness. The point of living is absolute turmoil when it is uncertainty to obtain happiness after living up to everything life has to offer.

29APR2013

Don't lose hope in God when everything falls around you. Just that small bit of faith is what makes you stand tall above everything around you.

23APR2013

If it was a dream that you obtained in reality, then it's not a dream at all. Dreams are something that cannot be obtained in reality but rather it stays in your dreams.

14DEC2012

The Lord created you not because he had a set fate for you to follow. He created you limitless in possibilities. He created you because he knew he wouldn't if it is everything in life you could not of handled.

17MAY2012

Realizing I never had to prove anybody wrong, I only do it for myself.

11JUL2010

I need a girl who doesn't want anything because I have nothing.

02APR2010

The word "impossible" exists for a reason.

19MAR2010

Empty eyes give my empty thoughts. Not a rush of blood that wants to live, flowing in a maze looking for an exit. I've asked for forgiveness and I've asked for guidance, nothing answered but the day before, circulating all over again. Many people have forgotten God, yet it is God who have forgotten me. No longer can I embrace reality, so I let fate forward me. Sometimes too empty for fate to carry, even it has lost faith in me.

18MAR2010

Always look down, your reality will always be a disappointment.

25FEB2010

I need change, I can only change when I'm alone. The people I know will always be the people I know. I can't change when I know what I know.

20FEB2010

Eternity froze when I saw her. Angel eyes with innocent lips. She stared at me as I stared at her. For only a second her eyes saw through mine, and for only a second I saw through her mind. When I gazed her from outside in, I penetrated love's meaning thin. Love destroys me, she drowns me, visualizing our hearts entwined to fit the end of time and space, we interlocked in ecstasy, but even that was not enough. Into her eyes I saw a dream, only it wasn't. She was impossible, only possible. I've lost all hope and I've lost all faith, I've lost my life when I've lost her eyes.

08FEB2010

Her desire is the moon's gravitational pull,
Keeping the earth within me whole.
Without the circulation of her heart,
Oceans would tear my eyes apart.