I've got everything coming for me yet I knock it away. Job opportunities to educational opportunities. The simplest work or class cause immense amounts of stress to me. I'm like screwed as long as I am alive because I don't fit in with the norms. There hasn't been a week passed where I don't think of ending my life in the past 6 years. I'm socially incapable. Meaning I can't live in today's typical society.